Yay and I am back again!!!But I did not really go anywhere anyway. Lol. Ok so yesterday I went this SANA(stands for...er...dunno?some anti-drug abuse association) course. Then we had to attend a (BORING!!!) lecture then take some test. Oh and we have to let 10 people do online surveys too, sian. Then after lunch(and we ate this interesting egg which looks like it was boiled then fried, haha), we had to do role-playing, which of course you can know from the name means acting out a skit. My group had a NP girl from Haising Catholic, 1 BB guy from Victoria and 2 BB guys from Swiss Cottage. Then apparently we were all shy-kias(except for the SCBB guy called Yih Siang, which was the one who gave the ideas, and also the one who started talking first) and the Victoria guy keeps laughing(kinda like me right,except I didn't laugh at that time). And the pro-est thing is, until now I still did not know their names except for one. Then we were slacking like mad until the instructor suddenly said that the role-play is starting. And then we chionged the script like mad. Wahaha. And after I watched all the groups, I realised that all the guys have some acting talent lorh, lol. They kept exaggerating and made me laugh like mad. XD But I still missed my squadmates most.:)
After thae course our squad kinda split up into groups. The guys went their own ways and some of the girls went home while the others went to eat. Me, being a dumb girl, went to Starbucks and bought a $5.80 latte which tasted bitter and was not even nice at all. Ok la I know I dumb but I have never been to Starbucks before mah,haha. But if u drink it really really slowly, you can taste the milk, which was kinda nice.:) Then after that I joined the girls at Mos Burger. Bought a Teriyaki Chicken Burger and shared Small Fries with Oon Him. Well that was definitely nicer than the latte Xb. Then I realised that I actually spent about $9 on food!!!!!And more than 50% was spent on the eww-ish coffee. Hai...I have to be smarter next time!!!!!

Then this morning I went to Jurong East to discuss, well, some matters with the squad. If you can call the 10-plus people group a squad. And only one guy came, and he did not contribute any useful ideas at all, lol. And lemme tell ya, he is a noise-maker. Which would be useful at parties, but if you held a party at the library the librarians would probably sue you for making too much noise. But we made alot of noise anyway, and I pigged out on chocolates. But you cannot blame me. They are simply just too irresistable mah.
But anyway we never really discussed many things and then we had a rushed lunch and went school. But I did not expect today's act to end so fast. Nevertheless it was a good thing. I was feeling kinda nauseous, my back was pain, I was having some difficulty breathing and I could have a stomachache anytime. I think that if I don't see a doctor soon, I may just faint on the street one day:(.
And anyway NCOs asked us what post do we want to take up when we are Sec 4, and I raised my hand for CC head. Apparently I was the only one(but I have not asked the boys yet, so maybe...well) and almost everybody wanted to be Squad ICs. Well actually I also wanted to raise my hand for Sec 2 Squad IC, but I guess the juniors will just hate me for not speaking loudly and for being anti-social(I think I may be very quiet and not say anything to the Sec 2s at all lorh). But I still hope I will have the chance to be a Squad IC or CC head.

And that kind of ends my day. Well today they came back but I think that person is angry at me. At least I think that person will be when that person reads my blog. Hope that person forgets the URL. I don't think the person even knows the URL in the first place, lol. Or the person do not bother to remember. I don't know.



Wondering, what are you thinking of right now?

I am kind of excited. I don't know why. Its about 9.25am in the morning, I have to go out about just half an hour later, and I have not packed my things. But still, I am excited. I am so excited!!! Looking forward to it. Though I don't know.....

OMGOSH guess what?!I actually survived ATC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok this piece of news is already outdated for 2-3 days, but I am so so happy man. You would never guess. Ok, I admit, it was pretty slack, but even if it is(slack I mean), how could you ever ever ever live in such dire conditions- ants crawling on every inch of ground you are stepping on(and I mean every inch!!!), sleeping a tent cramped with about five other people and sharing it with like, a million other insects?(yes, insects) and waking up at 4am in the morning(ok,actually fall-in time is 5.15am, but we need to wash up, and we could not sleep anyway) to face another day of perilous sun-shining(which is perilous because 1. you could get heatstroke and faint, 2. you could get skin cancer coz your skin does not know when to stop absorbing UV rays, or rather, the sun does not know when to stop shining, and 3. you could get burnt to a crisp, which is what almost happened to me(just look at the colour of my skin, just look!)). But what could I do. In order to get the SPF-NPCC badge(which I probably could not get anyway because I am neither as hardworking and enthusiastic as Min Min/ Wenting nor as good as Jovi and Mathu in PT and drill, but I should try anyway), I have to go through all these not-really-difficult-but-make-me-wanna-die-anyway camps in order to get the badge!!!Luckily, there is still my squadmates there and we can encourage and cheer each other on. But I really miss the squadmates who were not in my group!!!Luckily Jing Xian, Wenting and Kenneth was there, if not, I do not know how I could have gone through all of it!!!Of course, credit also goes to the rest of my suqadmates for their encouragement!Yay thanks squadmates:)!!!! But Wenting got sick and had to go home.:( Was really worried. But good thing she is ok now.:)
Ok ok tell you la, actually ATC was not really THAT difficult to go through. Its just that this idiotic bum of a girl hates ants(and Pulau Ulu, whoops I mean Pulau Ubin 偏偏 had to have this many ants.) and hates the sun(see what it did to her skin.Boys are fairer than her.She did not have the sense to bring sunscreen along with her) and most of all hates not bathing for a whole three days(stupid right she could have bathed but stubbornly refused.End result is endless rashes and itchyness and non-stop scratching, which I think caused people to think I am a disgusting and unhygienic girl). Ya so this is the case of the "Stupid girl who did not know how to survive in a not-hiong-at-all camp". I deeply believe that no such person would be as dumb as her to go do all these, but just in case, I persuade you not to follow in her footsteps and become a laughingstock. Although mainly the person who laughs at her is herself. Lol.

Found some nice songs. Look below:
First found and listened to this song on http://www.omy.sg/. The song itself is quite ok, but I really love the music!!!! And I like the music style too.


Ok I know this person looks kinda freaky with his hair, but the song is really cute you know. Ok perhaps you should just listen to the song coz the MV may kinda distract you.Also suggested for the song above and the other song below.


Well, this song I heard on the show 聊斋奇女子. And I found it nice coz it is quite melancholic, and you know I like these kinda sad songs, goodness knows why.

Had my cross-country today. Ok not me. I'm just a road marshal(but its fun wahahaha). But felt very fan recently. My results are dropping. ALOT. I don't even dare to show them to people. And as for my physical abilites............hai. I cannot even climb a wall. I cannot even do switch-side window. I cannot even do a few monkey-bars. SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME TRAIN!!!!!!!And anyway, I hereby announce that, 'I am quitting basketball'. Yes. Thats right. You did not see wrongly. Thanks to some people who demoralise me. And I am actually not really good in it anyway. I actually do not love basketball. I only like it because its so much more interesting than soccer. But I guess I'm never going to touch it again. Because now I strongly dislike it. No, you can even say I hate it now. I'm so sorry.
Recently, I am having some stupid anti-social+abit unhappy syndrome. I just don't feel much like talking or smiling. That would be why you see me looking "serious" and really sad. But if I did smile, then I am really really happy. What I mean is, it's no longer like last time. Now I really laugh because I am happy, not because I felt it is politically correct to. But it has also disgraced me in public a few times, because I can't control my luaughing. People will be like, looking no, staring, at me in a strange way. I bet they must be thinking," Is that girl mad?" Or something similar. But I feel so much more free now.
Thinking, 'life doesn't have much meaning'. You see, you were born, fed, clothed, get spoiled by parents, then you make friends, quarrel with them, make up with them, share things with them(sometimes not willingly), then you study, toil, burn midnight oils, get scolded by teacher, then you go out to work, burn midnight oil again, get scolded by boss, then you marry, have children of your own, feed, clothe and spoil them like your parents used to do to you, then you grow old, retire, rely on children, have many age-related problems, then finally, you die, turns into a ghost, get reincarnated, and the cycle begins again(unless you get to go heaven or become a saint). And most people get forgotten as time passes by. So what is the meaning of it all? Why were we created? Is there any purpose for our living? It would not be to help the world. Because we have almost destroyed it. It would not be to amuse the being that created us. Because a 7.8 earthquake is not amusing at all(imagine all the sadness and despair. Not to mention the blood). It would not be to relax. Unless you can call ATC relaxing. It would not be to burn us to death. Although, recently, I feel like I'm being burnt to death no thanks to the heat(no thanks to the hole in the ozone layer). Then? Why exactly are we here, living, breathing, touching, seeing, hearing, talking?


I really feel like shouting out at the top of my lungs.